Is long Hair reeeally in?!

Well I was told to put pics of me and Dallas on here. We will have more after vacation. But there is a few. Dallas is at his baseball game and we snuck some pictures in. Cuute isn't he?? He's growing up so fast. He'll be 11 years old in October! I can't believe it. I'll be sure to post some of me later...

My baby girl!

This is my babygirl Jenna Lynn. She is my pride and joy. This is Miranda's little niece. She's soo adorable. I spoil her quite often. This was at church during Vacation Bible School. I was Jenna's teacher. I soon became her best friend! If Aunt Deda is gonna spoil Lyssa then Stestanie will spoil Jenna. I love my little Jenna!!!!!!!

Living a Lie

You know lieing is horrible. But it's even worse when you lie to the ones that you love most. You try to hide feelings but feelings can't always be hidden. I try so hard. I've tried and tried--I can't hide my feelings. That's when my depression starts. I don't need this medication I'm on. If I could just start living like Jesus this life would be a lot better.

I wish that people could understand my feelings. Maybe I wouldn't have to lie. But no one cares what I think/feel/ or say. They have their own opinions on how things should go. And if I don't meet up to that--theyre angry. So I have tried to hide everything. If I tell someone exactly how I feel theyre going to be angry so I try to hide it, and somehow they find out I've been hiding it. Everytime. Sometimes I just wish I was young all over again when you lied about hitting your brother and you got punished for that.

I have learned lieing to someone who is your best friend in all the world is a huge mistake. I can't sleep or eat.

I think I'm done now.

Miranda's back at it...

Well Miranda is back at this blog stuff. So I guess I am too. Totally deleted my xanga--too much drama for me to handle. I have a myspace and also this.

Its been forever since I've wrote. So life really confuses me. I don't understand many things in it. Like I don't understand gas prices...I mean seriously! I am so mad. If gas didn't cost an arm and a leg and your aunts wedding ring I'd be going to Florida for vacation. I mean what the heck $3.05 a gallon?! What are these people thinking? But then we are soo smart Americans and pay the amount! But whatever! It ticks me off so bad! I guess I'll get over it. I mean vacation is suppose to be one of those things where its something YOU WANT TO DO. Not what your parents think will be "educational". I actually had mom going with my idea but Dad says "Mt. Rushmore sounds like a wonderful vacation" Ok seriously what kind of a vacation is that? You actually HAVE TO LEARN STUFF! I want to relax on a beach in FL. But noooo!

Ok enough of my complaining. I think I am going to compromise with Dad and talk him into going to Kentucky. To Carter Caves. It won't be soo "educational"
and its not reeeeal stressful. I hate those planned out vacations like Washington DC. AHHH that was a bad vacation and especially when your father is DAN LINDEMAN! UGH!

Hmm...ok I already said I was done complaining but I really need to get stuff off my chest. I'm soo upset! Miss Barr is leaving me this year. AHHH! How will I ever pass my math class?! LOL! But grrr everything is changing so much. I DONT LIKE CHANGE!

Then I'm going to college next year. I don't know whether or not to worry or to be excited. I'm excited to finally meet people who are along my maturity level but HONESTLY I'm scared to death. I don't know why....I mean small campus-Christian atmosphere. What is my problem!? I mean really?!!? Well I don't know--College starts Sept. 6th.

I miss my best friend. We use to hang out a lot. Its not their fault we don't anymore. Just somethings don't work like they use to. Things change soo fast. In one instant your life could change forever. I think that's why life confuses me--because I finally get use to something and as soon as I calm down and get comfortable with it--B A M! It changes. Hmmm....I think I need to get God back in the drivers seat and everything will fall. I don't know--we use to be soo close and now I feel like I don't know my best friend anymore. Life sucks!

Well...I've toats (totally Miranda! LOL) complained through this whooooooole entry. I think I need sleep!....night!